19911009 Caitanya-caritamrita Madhya-līlā.2.39-52

The following is the class given by HH. Jayapataka Swami on October 09 1991, Atlanta Georgia the class begins with readings from Caitanya Caritamrita Madhya Lila chapter 2, Verse 39 through 52.

 

kṣaṇe bāhya haila mana, āge dekhe dui jana,

tāṅre puche, — āmi nā caitanya?

svapna-prāya ki dekhinu, kibā āmi pralāpinu,

tomarā kichu śuniyācha dainya?

(Caitanya Caritamrita 2.39)

In an instant, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu regained external consciousness and saw two persons before Him. Questioning them, He asked, “Am I conscious? What dreams have I been seeing? What craziness have I spoken? Have you heard some expressions of humility?

Purport:

When Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu thus spoke in ecstasy, He saw two persons before Him. One was His secretary, Svarūpa Dāmodara, and the other was Rāya Rāmānanda. Coming to His external consciousness, He saw them both present, and although He was still talking in the ecstasy of Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī, He immediately began to question whether He was the same Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu.

 

śuna mora prāṇera bāndhava

nāhi kṛṣṇa-prema-dhana,—daridra mora jīvana,

dehendriya vṛthā mora saba

(Caitanya Caritamrita 2.40)

 

Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu continued, “My dear friends, you are all My life and soul; therefore I tell you that I possess no wealth of love for Kṛṣṇa. Consequently My life is poverty-stricken. My limbs and senses are useless.”

 

punaḥ kahe, — hāya hāya, śuna, svarūpa-rāmarāya,

ei mora hṛdaya-niścaya

śuni karaha vicāra, haya, naya — kaha sāra,

eta bali’ śloka uccāraya

(Caitanya Caritamrita 2.41)

 

Again He addressed Svarūpa Dāmodara and Rāya Rāmānanda, speaking despondently: “Alas! My friends, you can now know the certainty within My heart, and after knowing My heart you should judge whether I am correct or not. You can speak of this properly.” Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu then began to chant another verse.

 

ka-i-avarahi-aṁ pemmaṁ ṇa hi hoi māṇuse loe

ja-i hoi kassa virahe hontammi ko jīa-i

(Caitanya Caritamrita 2.42)

 

“ ‘Love of Godhead, devoid of cheating propensities, is not possible within this material world. If there is such a love, there cannot be separation, for if there is separation, how can one live?’

Purport

This is a verse in a common language called prākṛta, and the exact Sanskrit transformation is kaitava-rahitaṁ premā na hi bhavati mānuṣe loke/ yadi bhavati kasya viraho virahe saty api ko jīvati.

 

akaitava kṛṣṇa-prema, yena jāmbūnada-hema,

sei premā nṛloke nā haya

yadi haya tāra yoga, nā haya tabe viyoga,

viyoga haile keha nā jīyaya

(Caitanya Caritamrita 2.43)

“Pure love for Kṛṣṇa, just like gold from the Jāmbū River, does not exist in human society. If it existed, there could not be separation. If separation were there, one could not live.”

 

eta kahi’ śacī-suta, śloka paḍe adbhuta,

śune duṅhe eka-mana hañā

āpana-hṛdaya-kāja, kahite vāsiye lāja,

tabu kahi lāja-bīja khāñā

(Caitanya Caritamrita 2.44)

Thus speaking, the son of Śrīmatī Śacīmātā recited another wonderful verse, and Rāmānanda Rāya and Svarūpa Dāmodara heard this verse with rapt attention. Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu said, “I feel shameful to disclose the activities of My heart. Nonetheless, I shall be done with all formalities and speak from the heart. Please hear.”

 

na prema-gandho ’sti darāpi me harau

krandāmi saubhāgya-bharaṁ prakāśitum

vaṁśī-vilāsy-ānana-lokanaṁ vinā

bibharmi yat prāṇa-pataṅgakān vṛthā

(Caitanya Caritamrita 2.45)

 

Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu continued, “ ‘My dear friends, I have not the slightest tinge of love of Godhead within My heart. When you see Me crying in separation, I am just falsely exhibiting a demonstration of My great fortune. Indeed, not seeing the beautiful face of Kṛṣṇa playing His flute, I continue to live My life like an insect, without purpose.’

 

dūre śuddha-prema-gandha, kapaṭa premera bandha,

seha mora nāhi kṛṣṇa-pāya

tabe ye kari krandana, sva-saubhāgya prakhyāpana,

kari, ihā jāniha niścaya

(Caitanya Caritamrita 2.46)

“Actually, My love for Kṛṣṇa is far, far away. Whatever I do is actually an exhibition of pseudo love of Godhead. When you see Me cry, I am simply falsely demonstrating My great fortune. Please try to understand this beyond a doubt.

yāte vaṁśī-dhvani-sukha, nā dekhi’ se cāṅda mukha,

yadyapi nāhika ‘ālambana’

nija-dehe kari prīti, kevala kāmera rīti,

prāṇa-kīṭera kariye dhāraṇa

(Caitanya Caritamrita Madya 2.47)

 

“Even though I do not see the moonlike face of Kṛṣṇa as He plays on His flute, and although there is no possibility of My meeting Him, still I take care of My own body. That is the way of lust. In this way, I maintain My flylike life.

 

Purport by Srila Prabhupada

In this connection, Śrīla Bhaktisiddhānta Sarasvatī Ṭhākura says that the lovable Supreme Lord is the supreme shelter. The Lord is the supreme subject, and the devotees are the object. The coming together of a subject and object is called ālambana. The object hears, and the subject plays the flute. That the object cannot see the moonlike face of Kṛṣṇa and has no eagerness to see Him is the sign of being without ālambana. Externally imagining such a thing simply satisfies one’s lusty desires, and thus one lives without purpose.

 

So Lord Caitanya is expressing his extreme humility, establishing what is the highest standard of actual devotion to Krsna. Here we see Lord Caitanya expressing I have no devotion to Krsna, I am not a pure devotee, I am not a pure lover of Krsna, but the mood which  He is underdoing is extreme humility, frustration , separation of Krsna , personal worthlessness.

 

Sometimes talking with devotees , someone may say what is my false ego, nobody is pure , cannot be pure devotee and that is supposed to be accepted as a reason, that the defects,mistake is pointed out that is my false ego, as if, sorry, don’t expect me to be pure, don’t expect me to be understanding of devotional service.

 

Here, Lord Caitanya is not saying you know, I don’t love Krsna , and I can’t see his face, he is not saying , he is saying in one attitude, , he is saying in  such a way his heart rendering, he is saying in a deep, love and affection for Krsna, Srila Prabhupada used  a word sometimes shameless, for all our inefficiency and defects in devotional service, we should be very ashamed, Lord Caitanya  is expressing shame high, high, using the word, haya , haya means alas, alas, he said I feel ashamed for disclosure the activities, of my heart, of course Lord Caitanya saying this in his extreme humility more for our instruction, still Lord Caitanya has got has a pure love for Krsna,  He is Krsna himself, he has pure love for Krsna but he presenting like this that I don’t have pure love, but do you think that he is crying for Krsna is just a show, if I really have pure love  for Krsna how can I be alive, not being with him. if I really have pure love for Krsna that even though I am not seeing Krsna, how could I callously taking care of my body and solving about my material interest all the time , why wouldn’t I just be completely mad after seeing Krsna always, so , he compares himself to a fly or insect, a kit an insect absolutely essential (1) To be successful in devotional service , (2) To evaluate ourselves, our devotion according to the highest standard that we should be practicing, otherwise we won’t be able to achieve anything even close to it, so you can judge as ourselves simply according to the activity of others,pure _ guru because we find some qualities in Guru pure devotion or purity in devotion we want to get that quality from the Spiritual Master , mostly , _ trained once we become self satisfied, whatever we are ok for now, basically speaking we are stuck up, __ here when we hear these verses from Lord Caitanya mahaprabhu, the heart rendering humble, expressions of shame and lack of devotion, we should be ashamed how little devotion we have.

kṛṣṇa-premā sunirmala, yena śuddha-gaṅgā-jala,

sei premā — amṛtera sindhu

nirmala se anurāge, nā lukāya anya dāge,

śukla-vastre yaiche masī-bindu

(Caitanya Caritamrita 2.48)

“Love for Lord Kṛṣṇa is very pure, just like the waters of the Ganges. That love is an ocean of nectar. That pure attachment to Kṛṣṇa does not conceal any spot, which would appear just like a spot of ink on a white cloth.

Purport

Unalloyed love of Kṛṣṇa is just like a big sheet of white cloth. Absence of attachment is compared to a black spot on that white cloth. Just as the black spot is prominent, so the absence of love of Godhead is prominent on the platform of pure love of Godhead.

Here we see the example big white sheet of cloth is unalloyed love of Krsna, any slight absence of attachment to Krsna is compared to black spot on the pure white cloth, so Lord Caitanya is just saying, at some time I am taking care of my body, am doing different things, at that time, I am not fully absorbed in separation for Krsna.  He is pointing out , what he feels to be symptoms of  his lack of pure love of Krsna.

Compare that to our devotion, it is more like black cloth with few white spots,  the white is prominent, ours is little devotion you see, may be hard to relate with Lord Caitanya mahaprabhus ecstatic expression , our goal is actually to have a white cloth free from all the black spots, one should _ say that, it is so difficult to train mlechas,fallen souls, devotional service in the age of kali, sometimes the __ pure spirit soul , appeared spirit souls jiva atma is pure,  but covered, by accumulation of dust of so many births , so we just have to cleanse off these  contaminations, sometimes I feel I am cleaning a piece of coal, rubbing and rubbing  and all that comes out is black. It is not really something different,  ___ in the middle something is going to be black straight through.

If we really felt the way what Lord Caitanya advises us to feel , trinad api sunichena, more fallen than the straw in the street then, one name if somebody should call us which is below what we think we are, we should consciously feel so humble, how we forgotten Krsna how we neglected serving Krsna , how many millions and unlimited  births , simply wandered  in the stool and urine of sense gratification , so we are just considered ourselves lower than the straw in the street, if somebody says you pig this or that, what can they say which can be worse than our own self estimation, no worse than that.

If we actually follow Lord Caitanya mahaprabhu’s instruction where is the question of false ego. Devotional service means it has to be on the platform of zero false ego, any false ego is totally unacceptable, _ anything you want to be, _ , nothing happens without Krsna permission and Krsna is permitting somebody to call us butcher or some dirty names, _ we see that Krsna _ so, we take out any offense on that person,

Haridas Thakur is being whipped in twenty two market places, he said these people are not responsible please forgive them, I am responsible, I committed so many sins in my life  , so many bad karma, I deserved worse than this, I deserved that people mistreat me, call me names, whips me, cut me,_ me, I deserve this . That’s the attitude of these great devotees.

Ofcourse, doesn’t mean that we don’t defend ourselves if we had an opportunity. Haridas thakur also when Jagai Madai were chasing he ran for his life , later on but he didn’t hold Jagai Madai responsible ,  he didn’t become envious against Jagai Madai even though they are so cruel against  him, still Nitai and Haridas wanted to deliver Jagai and Madai, they always kept a favorable mood that’s what moved Jagai. When he saw that even after Madai beat Haridas,  excuse me, beat Nityananda prabhu, with a bottle on his head, and blood was flowing, even then Nityananda didn’t become envious of Madai , didn’t get angry , didn’t get vengeance, didn’t want to inflict a counter pain upon Madai, didn’t become fearful , he was still emanating love.

Then Jagai told Madai,stay off, he is not a ordinary person, we may not be upto that standard that’s not going to be very easy, but if we are not, we should be ashamed about it. We shouldn’t be proud about it. We shouldn’t take that a standard,

Just like a little child, Daddy, this one called me a name and the parents say, oh doesn’t matter. Let it go. But if someone starts to yell racial slurs, this and that, civilized people they are ashamed, this is  sub-human , uncultured, this is not human, they are not proud of that and a cultured person is not even more disgust, nor  does he take it seriously, these people are not taken seriously, these people are un___ devotees are highest to be a vaisnava, he is the highest perfection, Vaisnava is greater than a Brahmana, greater than  Devas, if you want to become a vaisnava, then all the test that maya throws on us , all the different test on our false ego, we have to pass them, otherwise at the time of death, we may fail over some  silly things, instead of remembering krsna, we will die thinking I have to get that guy, but how could you say that to me or some foolish thing instead of  how this material world is  such a sticky place, how wonderful it would be to be with Krsna and all this is symptomatic of the material world and it just to prepare me in the hands of Krsna!

Prabhupada says this is no place for gentlemen or gentlewomen , no gentlemen or lady would like to stay in this material world, this is not the place. People act in horrendous ways in the material world. Then in spiritual world, everyone is perfect gentleman, perfect gentle lady, perfect person, none of these things exists. If you want to be on the spiritual platform , then we have to transcend the false ego.

In Srimad Bhagavatam when Jada Bharata was instructed to carry the palanquin of the king Ragugana and that he was trying to avoid stepping on the ant, because he knew this was a bad karma, he didn’t want to commit any sin, so he was stepping out of pace with the rest of the people carrying the palanquin , king Rahugana started to chastise him, you fatso, you fat, cannot even work properly straight inside, the whole palanquin is jerking around , what do you think , he started critizing, then Jada Bharat he replied to him. I am neither fat nor skinny, and neither stupid nor bright, this or that , I am not this body, this body is,  then he  was giving whole philosophical treatise.

Then Rahugana understood this is not some coolie, some kind of porter I picked up off the street. This is some kind of sage or rishi, some intellectual , who knows the self realized soul, immediately he  stopped , prayed , you know, sorted it out, he put the palanquin on the ground , he pays his obeisances to Jada Bharata and he said, who are you?

Please forgive if I have committed any offense, who are you? You are speaking like a very learned pandit, someone who has spiritual knowledge and just like that  the whole discussion came. So that’s the standard of self realization. Jada bharath was criticised and his only stand was that whatever you say I am none of these things. Because I am not this body, I am not this mind, I am the pure spirit soul.

So, practically it becomes for a spiritual master intolerable or almost impossible to deal with the situation , where people take their self interest and false ego as the norm, as the acceptable standard. It is alright to have a certain amount of false ego, if somebody steps on the false ego more than the acceptable limit then it’s alright to respond also on the material platform. But where is stated anywhere Krsna consciousness?

We are not supposed to get offended when somebody addresses us on material platform. We are supposed to get angry if they offend a Guru or if they offend Krsna. Instead what happens, if  somebody attacks us in some way though not offending the Guru , we get so affected that we stop chanting our rounds, stop doing our devotional service, this is symptomatic to what we consider as a neophyte devotee.

As Srila Prabhupada said, unless we have mature devotees, devotees who are learned in the philosophy, in the future our movement is very dim and end up with some substandard leader, substandard devotee who will not be able to present this highest philosophy, Lord Caitanya’s philosophy is highest presentation of pure love of Krsna, if we can’t get above the platform of false ego, how we are going to be able to realize this philosophy and how we  are able to preach them, how we are going to able to practice it? In our daily activities, we are always being tested.

The real conflict is that there is that somebody has a desire to do something to Krsna, other person obstructs him in doing that, this is the only kind of reasonable problem that can arise therefore, ultimately the two are not able to help each other in doing devotional services, then they have to be re located, but on the other , the difficulties that  come up  engaging in Prajalpa, they are completely substandard.

So when we hear these verses from Chaitanya Mahaprabhu,  He is so ashamed over His loss of pure devotion, He considers this as loss of pure devotion like being able to live without seeing Krsna, His standard is if you think of Krsna and not able to see Krsna,  if you have pure love, you should immediately die in separation, anything less than that is not the highest level of pure devotion.

So, if we follow Lord Caitanya’s footstep first we should _ you know, what he further elaborates not only that when I am bathing, when I am eating, when am taking care of my body, at that time I am not necessarily thinking about Krsna, in that highest level of separation, then how is it possible that I  have pure love, a pure love, really pure love then all times I would be thinking only of Krsna only, no time to think of my body! Interesting,

Srila BhaktiSiddhanta Sarasvati Thakur had one time made a comment about that what I think about you know, brush my teeth, take a bath, that’s when I am off, I fall down from the level of separation of Krsna, I come down , you know, to the mood of goodness, we are now, even we are in the passion and ignorance, remember to brush our teeth, and take a bath, forgetting our passion, _ the great acharyas they are so absorbed in the love of Krsna in the separation from the lord when the meditation would break, when they would come out of the ecstasy , then they now I have to brush my teeth, level of consciousness, for us practically __ so actually this kind of devotional service may appear very very far from us, if we can focus ourselves, if we can understand what it is, and if we desire it, by the mercy of Lord Caitanya maharaprabhu we can get it, even now we can feel it, but  if we don’t focus , if we don’t understand , instead if we just focus and think of mechanical processes of certain aspects of sadhana bhakti and then holding on to you know, large amounts of false ego, lot of self interest, is not dovetailed to Krsna consciousness etc etc.,  we are not going to get ecstasy of devotional service, we are not going to  get love of Krsna, which means that the danger of being attached to material sense gratification is there.

So atleast we should be ashamed about it, I don’t have the devotion, we should try to serve the devotees, they have my devotion, perform my devotional service in such a way that we can improve our devotion , we should definitely accept , so third way, level of devotion as something to not be ashamed of, Lord Caitanya says , just like a white cloth and a black spot is prominent, that should be the standard, we should be having a white cloth  , try to eliminate the black spot, our false ego is so thick that we black spot, little white, look at see the pure devotee, I am doing this service, are rest of the cloth may be black, our prabhupada then , if you always white cloth on , black spot are still there , sometime it is very frustrating when you talk with devotees, obviously they are filled with defects but they cannot see their own defects, they cannot recognize it , they don’t want to hear it, their mind is pointed out you have this _ , defect, you need to work on it.

 

 Srila Bhaktisiddantha sarvasvati thakur told humorous story about this kind of person, he said, once there was a landlord, big landlords, those times the British rule they were many lords , in British ruling through this  landlords and the kings, so, anyway there was a landlord and he had a servant, and this servant was _ never wrong, appreciate, never wrong, people _ no wrong, never wrong, so many times when he makes mistakes people were _ found the mistakes, this is the problem then he got the answer for the everything, he says oh, it is not my fault, _ his problem, he did it , I didn’t do, this or that, or truly or no, something always _ word, everybody was disgusted this guy, some have he is going with this servants, so one day, the landlord personally asked him to do something and he came back and completely messed it up, like complete disaster, he told that look this is not correct, this is not the way , like and he started the same thing with him, he said , oh this is not like that, you didn’t explain  it properly, and this thing, that thing, its’ not me everything, , the landlord said you know, this guy is never going to learn, see his mistakes, I will not been able to get proper  service out of him,unless he realize his own mistakes, he can never improve if he can’t see __ , so he took the time to explained to him, you are wrong, it’s your mistake ,its’ your duty , you have to do it, not everybody is fault, no no this is not,  and he said  I was not wrong, the landlord , in those days cruel in India you know, just like you know, he was the judge, magistrate, police everything , he said you are wrong, I was not wrong, you are wrong, ???  Ok Guys, wherever it happen I have to ____, I have to punish him, this is the only way then he started to beating over stick, hmmm, hmm,  and the guy said, __ , always right, even the guy , __ hmm, hmm, still , bleeding this guy is not going to give, such an ego, so , this is not going to give anyway, _ brakes this guys false ego some have, the guys , he is also getting kind of you know, injured, by the whole exercise , he said __  , this guy is a real case, doesn’t care for his son__ he said wife have to come in and plead to stop beating my son,_ he didn’t do anything, and then the guy thought , _ beat my wife then _ beat a women, he has going to be red-handed beating someone’s wife , so he started, see, you cannot hit my wife, so, with , the person was just like, there is no way never accept that he was wrong, srila Bhakti Siddhanta Sarasvati , some people like that , someone try to sort them, try to correct him, tries to show them how they can help themselves, how they can improve their sadhana but they never see their own personal defects, even at the cost of own destruction, destruction of family , their friends, anyone but they didn’t accept that they could be wrong and we see some people like that, _ I am sorry I made a mistake, but because they insists on they didn’t do anything wrong, they didn’t make mistake, they could never be wrong, everybody else become so, intolerable that ultimately they cannot say anything , _ devotees even then they say it’s not my fault, its everybody fault, society of devotee, it’s a president fault, its Guru s fault, ultimately its Krsna’s fault , everybody is wrong, even God is wrong .,I am the only one who is right, why? People say why Krsna is doing this to me? I am not wrong, its God is wrong, the go to the point even Krsna is wrong, they never __ I must have committed some bad karma , I must have done  something do deserve this, because Krsna is never wrong, so that people like that, we don’t want to be that, for sure nobody wants to even you know, _ because those people  are like really have the cases , they all self destruction, until they get out of that maya will kick kick kick and kick thousands of births, __ takes the actually _ and in such a thing that may  be may be ,, I am responsible for my own suffering, and that’s we have to realize, we are responsible for the suffering that we bring upon, we bring it upon ourselves, either by our immediate action or by our previous activities we performed, nobody is responsible for the suffering we get expect ourselves that it is the ultimate realization that we have to come to, then we are free from the tendency to offend other , to the you  know , to the greatest degrees, we have to desire the love of Krsna, we have to desire so much we just transcend the false ego, unfortunately sri Caitanya Caritamrita is so elevated , actually we haven’t realize the basic teaching Krsna gave us in Bhagavat Gita to be tolerant, any difficulty comes up we immediately enriched, but here in these verses we can understand we could actually purify ourselves and practice the philosophy of Krsna thought us in Bhagavat Gita we could achieve the level of krsna by krsna ‘s mercy

śuddha-prema-sukha-sindhu, pāi tāra eka bindu,

sei bindu jagat ḍubāya

kahibāra yogya naya, tathāpi bāule kaya,

kahile vā kebā pātiyāya

(Caitanya Caritamrita 2.49)

“Unalloyed love of Kṛṣṇa is like an ocean of happiness. If someone gets one drop of it, the whole world can drown in that drop. It is not befitting to express such love of Godhead, yet a madman must speak. But even though he speaks, no one believes him.”

ei mata dine dine, svarūpa-rāmānanda-sane,

nija-bhāva karena vidita

bāhye viṣa-jvālā haya, bhitare ānanda-maya,

kṛṣṇa-premāra adbhuta carita

(Caitanya Caritamrita 2.50)

In this way, Lord Caitanya used to revel in ecstasy day after day and exhibit these ecstasies before Svarūpa and Rāmānanda Rāya. Externally there appeared severe tribulation, as if He were suffering from poisonous effects, but internally He was experiencing bliss. This is the characteristic of transcendental love of Kṛṣṇa.

The wonderful characteristic of transcendental love of Krsna, so Lord Caitanya was expressing all these with humility, I am not having love for Krsna, then actually he is feeling, internally so much bliss in love of Krsna, even one drop pāi tāra eka bindu, if we can get one drop of love of Krsna which is like an ocean of transcendental ecstasy in one drop the whole world can be completely submerged, they may have world of attachments, the universal material considerations and anxieties, but if he gets one drop of love of Krsna, will flood the whole things, the whole universe can flood in the one drop of ocean of love of Krsna, and Lord Caitanya is completely swimming in the whole ocean, drinking the ocean of nectar ,

 

ei premā-āsvādana, tapta-ikṣu-carvaṇa,

mukha jvale, nā yāya tyajana

sei premā yāṅra mane, tāra vikrama sei jāne,

viṣāmṛte ekatra milana

(Caitanya Caritamrta 2.51)

If one tastes such love of Godhead, he can compare it to hot sugarcane. When one chews hot sugarcane, his mouth burns, yet he cannot give it up. Similarly, if one has but a little love of Godhead, he can perceive its powerful effects. It can only be compared to poison and nectar mixed together.

pīḍābhir nava-kāla-kūṭa-kaṭutā-garvasya nirvāsano

nisyandena mudāṁ sudhā-madhurimāhaṅkāra-saṅkocanaḥ

premā sundari nanda-nandana-paro jāgarti yasyāntare

jñāyante sphuṭam asya vakra-madhurās tenaiva vikrāntayaḥ

(Caitanya Caritamrita 2.52)

 

Lord Caitanya Mahāprabhu spoke, “ ‘My dear beautiful friend, if one develops love of Godhead, love of Kṛṣṇa, the son of Nanda Mahārāja, all the bitter and sweet influences of this love will manifest in one’s heart. Such love of Godhead acts in two ways. The poisonous effects of love of Godhead defeat the severe and fresh poison of the serpent. Yet there is simultaneously transcendental bliss, which pours down and defeats the pride of nectar and diminishes its value. In other words, love of Kṛṣṇa is so powerful that it simultaneously defeats the poisonous effects of a snake, as well as the happiness derived from pouring nectar on one’s head. It is perceived as doubly effective, simultaneously poisonous and nectarean.’ ”

Purport

This verse is spoken by Paurṇamāsī to Nāndīmukhī in the Vidagdha-mādhava (2.18) of Śrīla Rūpa Gosvāmī.

Feeling Separation from the lord is just like poison, but somehave at the same time he is feeling that separation one is simultaneously expression transcendental bliss, which is like unlimited nectar so this inconceivable feeling of poison and nectar, just like  , case of srila prabhupada and those who are personally able to know Srila Prabhupada , Srila Prabhupada _ those who personally saw him , _ know many names, but those who are able to know Srila Prabhupada they could see that what Srila Prabhupada was in ecstasy he would  have very great smile, his mouth would be you know, grave, but the same time, just now, it wasn’t he was sad, it wasn’t you know some kind of material it was something completely different he was same thing simultaneously, some conflicting emotions which are not of this world, and one could understand that he was the most happy person you ever met although he was looking very grave.

Hare Krsna Hare Krsna Krsna Krsna Hare Hare

Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare

 

GM started singing of Mahamantra kirtan, from 42:08minutes to 50:03minutes

Nitai Gaura Hari Bol,  Kirtan starts,

Jay Prabhupada Jay Prabhupada  jaya prabhupada Jaya  Prabhupada

 

Srila Prabhupada ki jai (Devotee says jai)

Prema dvani starts….

 

Nitai Gaura Premanande ( Jai)

Sri Caitanya Caritamrta ki jai (Jai)